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New year has always been very meaningful to me. The 010110 this year is not as distinguished as 010101. Not planned but someone seemed to love the attention & steal the limelight. Exactly like she is now... ;-) It was the day I gave birth to my second baby, Wardah. Normal delivery without a husband next to me (HB was in Nagoya). My first experience with labour pain & really not a beautiful sight, you know what I mean...

With Yasmin I requested for epidural as early as the contraction started. In fact, I asked for more when I felt only a slight of pain. A young mom I was... & very scared. The nurses helped me when to push because I didn't feel a thing but numb from waist downward. That was Yasmin. HB was right next to me.

Wardah on the other hand, met her father only on her 3rd day. I chose to stay at the hospital just only to get the thrill of him fetching us.

My oven still remain not repaired. So we bought Wardah a cake. Since yesterday was the 31st & my girls never fail to remind me of BR 31% discount , we got one from BR itself. No. There's no discount on cakes. Only on icecream.

Wardah's 9th birthday cake

Nope. We didn't wait. Cut the cake yesterday.. Not only a day earlier but a year early as well. Hehehehe... Here are some of the moments HB shot.

The birthday girl with her sisters

Wardah saved one candle for Nadeen to blow.

She managed at one blow ;-)

Today in fact is another date to remember. Until this moment, I last breastfed Nadeen at 7am this morning. It was hard for me but I have to obey to HB. Well, I did try to persuade him for another month which he rejected. By right I was supposed to stop when Nadeen turned 2 in December 2nd. I told him that I'd stop once we return from HK. But I didn't... He seems serious about this one." End of the year & that's it".

She asked for my milk at noon today. I used the same trick with Balqis. Applied tamarind onto the areola. I could not give her to taste it. I still remeber the look on Balqis when she had her taste of tamarind when she was about to give in to her addiction sucking my milk. I didn't want to go through that again. So with Nadeen, I showed it to her. Told her that it got dirty & smelly. It worked. She refused. I distracted her.

However when it was time for her day nap, she pulled my hand & led me to my room, on my bed.

Kept saying "Di.. Di..."

I asked, "CD? You want to watch Barney?"

"No...!!" "Di..!" and pointed to the bathroom.

She wanted me to mandi (bathe) as to clean off the dirt. That, made me cry... My maid was just outside the door. She was the one who helped me with Balqis when I wanted to stop breastfeeding her. If she were not around, I might just give in & give her my milk. Sri took Nadeen & said something about dirty & smelly again...

Before dinner just now, she requested to have a look at my breasts. I excused myself & let her sisters distract her. Rushed downstairs, did another application of the tamarind & showed to her. She didn't look frustrated but pointed the dirt with her little fingers closing her nostrils. When I got nearer she ran away from me. But when I told her to give me hug, she didn't hesitate.

As for now, she is with my maid sleeping together with her sisters. Didn't ask for my milk & I can't wait for tomorrow so that I can hug her again.