Sunday, February 14, 2010

CNY Break

Gong Xi Fa Chai to my readers. I am in Klang at my PILs'. HB surprisingly is on leave on this festive season. Something very rare ;-)

I kind of looking forward spending the night here. No I mean it! My in-laws are pretty cool. Really! Imagine me at this moment writing this down in front of the TV watching Oprah whilst my MIL is in the kitchen preparing something for tea. She, like me prefers the kitchen to herself when she cooks. Sri does the cleaning only after she is done in the kitchen :-)

HB & Nadeeen are napping. The other girls are with their grandfather playing some games. What else shall I do? Good thing I brought along this NB. At least it gets me occupied.

Frankly I feel restless. Believe it or not I wish I have my sewing machine with me so that I can finish up my tudung orders. My... have I turned to a workaholic or what?

I love what I do now. Took me almost 8 years to discover this. At least I found it! To my readers who are still wondering on what to do.. don't lose hope. I have tried almost everything & only recently landed on this passion.

My SIL came over on Friday to collect some tudungs her MIL & SIL ordered. Since I plan to spend the break in Klang, the girls tagged their aunt to Klang. Not Nadeen though... She stayed with me.

I joined them yesterday after HB came back home from work. The minute I stepped out of the car I was reported that Balqis tripped while attempting to catch some chicks. She has quite a prominent cut on the chin. Cried her heart out of course but my MIL managed to coax to sleep. When I reached her, she just woke up but was all smiling. The fall forgotten :-)

I found Wardah making origami planes. Her attempts failed & needed papa for assistance... Yasmin was no where to be seen. She was at my aunt's house next door petting some fish. It was close to 7pm & none took their shower yet! Enjoying their break definitely...

Ohwww.... the aroma of Pisang Goreng disturbs my intention to write more. Yeah...! I'm a terrible DIL. I really treat myself as a guest here. ;-)

Saturday, February 6, 2010

I'm A Working Mom

Yes, this space has long been untouched. I realise some of my dear friends in the blogsphere have been curious about me & I decide to update.

I have been a full time mom for close to 8 years. I quit my job long ago when Wardah was 22 months. Managing our own new house & the girls (then was only Yasmin & Wardah) was pure satisfaction. Anyhow when I conceived Balqis, we decided to employ a help. She helped with the housework but the girls were still attached to me.

When the girls one by one started schooling, I in a way was looking for something to do. But in the end of the day, I preferred to be with my girls more than anything. Furthermore, HB is not so keen of me working out. He prefers me home with him whenever he's off duty. So, I continued supervising my family & I got occupied with the girls' school work & other extra classes I enrolled for them. You name it... they have almost tried everything!

This homepage is the time I spent for myself & of course all the books I own... :-) By chance, HB bought me a sewing machine plus an over lock machine last year. Well, it was not that he surprised me with them but I was the one who wanted to try my skill in sewing. Really have to thank HB for the faith he had in me. The day I purchased those machines was also the day I bought this book called " Seni JahitanPakaian Kanak- Kanak". Yes, I did not know a thing about sewing!

Since I have the leisure time at home, I managed to learn the tutorial online. So basically, when I bought those machines they remained untouched since I was most of the time with my NB googling for sewing sites :-)

My mom was there to assist me. She knows how to sew baju kurungs & it was from her I practised on my theory I gathered from the Net. My first piece was Wardah's baju kurung. You may read it here. I started to explore on bags, dresses but when it came to tudungs I got hooked. Now I have started my online shop selling tudungs & my hands are full.

As Yasmin & Wardah put it, I am now a working mom. Not that they were complaining but I sensed pride in their words. Balqis too understands her mom's new passion & wouldn't mind sharing the table with me doing her work. Nadeen is a different story. She , I can see doesn't like sharing me. Enough that she has 3 sisters to compete with but now a machine? So, I have to stop my sewing when I'm needed by the little boss.

Sad to say, ever since I wean her off breast milk, she is very much attached to Sri, my maid. She still doesn't agree to the idea of me feeding her with formula. Only Sri can do that! On top of that Sri is excellent with children... She can manage all my girls at ease.

Now, I understand whenever my friends long for the weekend to spend time with their children. Even though I work at home, my time is no longer spent with them all the time. Yes, they grow right in front of my eyes but it is not the same anymore.

I asked the elder girls the other day... Do they prefer me then or now that I have other commitment besides them. Their response was the latter. I'm not surprised though. My sewing time is done when they are in school & at night I still assist them with homework together.

My guilt is towards Nadeen. Worse that now she refuses to sleep with me but chooses her sisters! No, Sri sleeps in her own room. But at night she attends to Nadeen when she wants milk... I don't know how things will be when Sri returns home next month. Yes, this is her final month with us & I pray that the one replacing her is as good as her.

HB now is most of the time home. But whenever he is away, I will make Balqis sleep with me so that Nadeen will come along. I miss her. Could it be a post-nursing syndrome? Is there such thing?